talked with my mom today for quite awhile amidst the moments of signal outages. there are so many things i want to say to her. so many things i wish i could do for her. and i can't. can't make her understand. she's in complete denial. eating healthy. using her inhalers. exercising. but she still simply doesn't want to admit to it. doesn't want to admit that this is her new life. that it is something that she must deal with. must learn about. must take ownership of.
but here is where we differ. i want to find out as much as possible... i search. i try to figure out the problem. and then ways to solve it. i make connections (or try to). but my mom is at a point in this where making the connections is too difficult.
and so i thank god for the family she is surrounded by. to take care of her. and wish that i could be closer than i am. fourteen hours is a long way...
and to think i may not get to see my family until thanksgiving... now that's heartbreaking (and a difficult concept to grasp).
hopefully mom will be able to drive to see me and bring furniture sometime next month. oh what a blessing that would be.
for now, focus. on the matters at hand... like the method section of my research prospectus, "facebook vs. print media."
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